My personal distraction tends to be physical. If I'm not physically active I feel guilty that I'm not using my time productively. This turns to worry, over analyzing and questioning how will I ever succeed. To distract myself from over thinking I fill my time with other tasks like cooking, knitting, sewing, rearranging my miniature kitchen or garden, daydreaming about a more simple life, or living in a caravan in the sun on a small holding, writing lists, planning my timetable, writing rules for myself, sticking stick ers in a book, drawing clothes I'd like to make, starting projects and websites, (that never get finished), visiting the library for inspiration, bringing home lots of books, being glad that I've got them then getting an overdue reminder, rearranging my studio space, shopping, drinking, eating, smoking, arranging social activities, surfing the net, filling in questionaires on what kind of personailty I am, checking my online banking, reading and responding to my 3 email accounts, designing icons, thinking how I would liked to have studied fashion or nutrition, reading my alternative therapy books to discover a new illness I may have by which time im exhausted and depressed and have to go to bed feeling guilty I didn't read a book or phone that friend or read the pile of books I got from the library, or read the expensive journals I bought, that I ate chocolate and smoked too many cigarettes, But least I knitted a jammy dodger... |